I’m beginning to believe that 2020 is about asserting your dominance over your own choices. I feel like we are all pressured into doing things that we don’t want to do. It’s important to have your own happiness too. I find it incredibly disheartening to see people living a miserable life because they have to do things that they didn’t choose.
I’m becoming a lot better at writing blog posts related to mental health. I’m definitely dealing with a lot of mental health things myself too. I need some time to do what I want. I want to have my life back, completely, without the influence of other people. This is my life and my life is precious to me. Give me my life back!
I’m so tired of people that are not worth losing my sanity over. My life is fine without too many people in it. I’ve realized that having friends is so much better than family. Your friends respect your boundaries and they will care for you better than your family does. And your friends are fun to hang out with. I’m going on my vacation tomorrow and I’m so excited. I need some time to recharge away from all the negativity. I’m looking forward to it. And I’m leaving tomorrow early afternoon 😊 I’m going to shut off for awhile and just enjoy my vacation.
When people are obsessed with you and you just want to be alone. I just want no one to bother me. I don’t have the energy anymore to deal with this bs. I don’t care about being polite. I honestly don’t care. It’s so stupid. I know I just need to focus on my own stuff and all of this other stuff is a waste of time. Am I seriously going to sit here and think about simple house chores? No. So stupid. So done. I just need to be left alone.
When you and your partner hit a bump in your relationship, it’s so difficult to get everything back together. If it’s a big bump, the amount of work you need to fix it is even more. I’m so protective of my relationship and I know that we both want to be together. It’s so hard though. Maybe true love takes a lot of work. It requires both people to really want to be together. And I know that it’s worth it. I’m going to continue to work on my relationship. I hope that things will continue to foster and grow in a healthy way. Not everything is so simple, but true relationships can withstand a lot. The path to happiness is never easy. Everything will work out for the better.
I recently got a therapist that I talk to every day. We haven’t spoken too much on specific things because I’m still in the getting to know each other phase, but I’m excited to see how things change in the upcoming weeks. I’m not a perfect person and I definitely need a lot of help when it comes to relationships and stress management. I realized that I was doing a lot of the work by myself and maybe there was too much for me to worry about. It could be that one person can’t handle that much stress. I’ve learned that I need to slow down. My life has been a whirlwind of emotions that I’ve only created for myself. If I take the time to work out how to manage all of my emotions, I think I will definitely be a stronger person. I’ll let you know how everything goes in the next few weeks. I have my lsat test next week too. I’m hoping for a good day on test day.
I’m not going to lie… I have a lot of good people in my life and I am almost never alone. I have my friends and all of my students. They really know how to make me happy. And when I’m feeling especially alone, I look forward to seeing them. I also have my family and my other support systems. All of this doesn’t matter to me though. I don’t feel complete without my husband. It feels like there is a huge open hole in my heart when we’re fighting. And I miss him. It doesn’t feel normal to not talk to him. I don’t know when I became so clingy. I hate it. I don’t want to be like this. I want to be strong and to be a strong woman.
Is it wrong though to miss your husband during a fight? I don’t even know if he misses me. I will live, I guess. I just want him to talk to me. We’re taking some time to calm down after a fight. It’s my least favorite part of our relationship… the fighting part. I need to not be caught up in all of the missing him because I want to heal what went wrong.
I’m about to drive home after a long day of being out. And I wonder what it’s going to be like coming back home. Will he talk to me? Will he act like I’m not there? Will he sleep on the couch again? Being married is so hard. I need to stop obsessing and start thinking about something else. Come on Lia, you’ll be okay. Just calm down.
First of all, I didn’t even have a ceremony. It’s amazing that people want to be included in my life when they make absolutely zero effort to include me in theirs. Why would I invite them to my wedding? I had a private vow exchange with my husband and I. That’s it. We didn’t do anything extravagant. We wanted it to be only about us. And people are just including themselves in it. I didn’t know getting married was about them also.
It’s alright though. I have much more things to do than to care about this stuff. It only bothered me a little. I know my husband and I are happy. And is it bad that I’m happy that no one else was invited? This is MY wedding. I got to control it. I will never let anybody control what I do or tell me what to do. No thank you! Bye Felicia!
You are your own person and they are their own. Why should you let someone control your life? Don’t! I certainly don’t and I have been very happy. I stopped listening to the nonsense that was told to me about what to do and when to do it. I don’t control their life, so why should I let them control mine? My life is mine. I am going to do whatever I want to do whenever I want to. I could care less. 2020 is about living your life the way you want. Start taking control of your own stuff and start making yourself happy! Let’s do it!
The most important lesson I’ve learned this year is to have tunnel vision and to only see what you need to see. There are so many things going on in the world and it’s just not worth my time anymore to care. I’ve also seen the importance of ignoring those who don’t support you or like you. If they’re not doing anything for you, you must distance yourself away. I’ve greatly increased my productivity and my happiness by doing so. And I wish I would have done this sooner. Tunnel vision also protects you from being hurt by unnecessary things. I haven’t been hurt from people saying or talking bad things about me. I honestly don’t care. And I have taught myself to release that energy back into my work. My success is a result of gaining back the time that I wasted on other people. I’m much more happier and I feel like I finally I have control of my life again.
It’s good to spend time by yourself and I am one of those people that love being by themselves. I prefer to spend huge chunks of my time doing things alone. I like to eat alone. I love surfing the web alone. These are the things that make me happy. I am glad this year that I was able to protect my own happiness from the negativity in the world. It has been difficult. I’ve had to go out of my way to do this, but I’m so glad that I did. My mental health has improved drastically from what it was before. I hope to be able to continue taking care of myself. I’m looking forward to 2020 and I hope everyone has a great New Years!
Not everyone is happy all the time and that is understandable. I believe that if you choose to make the best out of your day/situation, you will create more happiness. It’s okay to have things not go your way. And I’ve been in more situations than I would like where I was having a bad day. I’ve learned that happiness doesn’t just happen to you, it’s something you choose every day.
I’m going to try to give this a chance. I know that life is going to get better for me and I’m excited for that. I obviously don’t do well with stress or negative people, but I know that I’ve grown so much stronger. I’m ready for the new year and I will strive to be the best version of myself.
I’m feeling quite discouraged. I work so hard and I’m so tired, but I don’t see any results. What’s the point of working hard every day to achieve my goals when I don’t see the fruits of my labor? I know nothing happens over night. I need to learn to be more patient with myself. I’m too ambitious and I have always been like this ever since I was young. Nothing has really changed. I think a good night’s rest will help a lot to clear my mind. I hope everyone is having a good Christmas!
Not everyone is going to like you and that’s okay. They are jealous of you. They want what you have. It’s best just to ignore them. Nothing brings down a queen that has it all. It is normal to have haters on the side, but remember that they are just a waste of time. They’re insignificant to the bigger dream that you have. And maybe everyone will think you’re crazy for ignoring these people, but that’s okay too. Nothing will stop you from your goals. Not even a person. They can try to pull you down to their level, but you will rise. And they are nothing to you 🙏
As of recently in the past couple of years, I’ve learned that I suffer from stress gut. I get a sharp pain in the center of my stomach every couple of minutes. I also vomit uncontrollably. The pain is bearable, but also very uncomfortable. I’ve learned that I need to stay away from stressors and negative thoughts. They pollute my mind and it makes me very ill. Surprisingly, the stomach is connected to stress. If you suffer from stress gut, your stomach has more bad bacteria than good bacteria. You also bloat a lot. The symptoms are similar to having stomach cramps and it lasts for two or more days. I don’t have an exact cure except to practice breathing exercises. Breathe in deeply several times. Sleeping has helped also. I also haven’t drank any caffeine, which I heard makes it worse.
I recently had stress gut and I’m still suffering from it right now. I had a terrible headache earlier today, but I took aspirin and I napped. The stomach pains haven’t stopped though. I never understood what it felt like to be so stressed that you feel sick inside until now. It’s a horrible feeling. I am going to try to rewrite my mind. I know I’ve been thinking negatively. I think that I need to learn how to ignore my problems and just be happy. I’m still learning and if you’re struggling with something similar, know that you are going to be okay. Don’t stop fighting for your mental health. You have to keep fighting for your happiness.
I’m writing this while on the exercise bike. Exercising helps to reduce stress and I hope it works for me right now. I hope everyone is doing well. I hope you have a good weekend!
I’m beginning to understand that I still have a lot of control over my life and no one can control what I want to do. I will still continue to be the best dog owner to my yorkie and I will continue to be a good wife to my husband. I will also continue to build a great future for myself regardless of all the negativity. Nothing will deter me from my goals. Life is going to be great and I cannot let anything rob me of my happiness.
I’m struggling with protecting my own happiness. I distance myself away from all of the negativity and somehow, it always ends up crawling back into my life. I don’t know how to completely be away from it. And I’m very upset by this.
I spend almost all of my time away from the negativity and they still try to do things that they know will bother me. They act like I’m not there, but they are standing where I need to go. And I have to just stand there and wait until they move. It’s not like they don’t have eyes and they can’t see I’m there! It makes me so mad. They wake up early just because they know they can find me earlier in the morning. They ask questions about me all the time and they’re actively trying to ruin my life. I can’t stand this. I can’t live with this controlling person. And I’m disgusted by them.
I’m beginning to realize that my happiness will never be protected. I can never completely be apart from this person. They will always be there trying to ruin my life. It’s like always having a shadow watching over you. I just want my peace. I want to be able to live happily and not have to be affected by this person. I’m utterly disgusted, but I know I will continue to try to get my happiness back. They will not defeat me. My happiness is worth protecting and I will continue to rise above this person. They continue to ruin other people’s lives too. It’s not just me.
I’ve been thinking of starting this as a new series alongside my daily motivation posts. I like writing what I’m thinking about at the moment and I find it very therapeutic to write these thoughts down. It helps me to get over the problem. And I’m much more happier after.
I’ve been thinking about blogs and I’m surprised not a lot of people blog around me. I wonder what they’ll do in the future when they get older. Will they continue to watch television and do nothing when they’re older? Blogging gives me something to do that is productive. I’m thankful for finding blogging when I did, but I know that some people will never find a hobby. And that is sad. They’ll never find something they like to do.
I don’t want to say that I think I’m better because I blog, but I know that I will be blogging probably for the rest of my life. And that gives me a sense of security knowing that I have a future with blogging. I know that whatever happens, I will always have something to fall back on. Some people will never have that. They grow old and they have zero skills. I wonder about that. Why didn’t they find something to fall back on? I don’t understand, but I guess not everything has to have an answer.
I am happy today. I’ve learned to ignore the negative and just focus on the positive. Life is good.
I’m still studying and working. It’s hard, but I’m proud of myself. Every day is filled with activities and things to do. It keeps me busy, and I am grateful to do something. Nothing has quite changed since my last post. My sleep has also improved. I hope everyone is having a good week so far! December is the best time of the year and I’m excited!
Hello everyone 👋 It has been awhile since I’ve posted that I can remember. I’ve finally decided to take this Sunday to rest and recuperate without feeling guilty that I should be doing something productive. I’m giving myself one day just to rest and I deserve it.
I’ve been watching The Good Place on Netflix and it has to be one the best shows I’ve watched in a long time. I’m on season 2 now. It has also led me to question morality. What defines a good person? What makes a person bad? The show answers these questions. I really like that the show is humorous too. It’s definitely worth checking out.
I feel like I’m finally back in a good place. It really helped to nap today. My mind is more clear than ever. I even feel ready to start work tomorrow! I hope everyone is having a great Sunday! I’ll see you another time!
I’ve always been the kind of person that gets everything second. I am the youngest in my family and it’s no surprise to me that I am the least appreciated. I don’t even get invited to events from my own family unless my mom invites me. My second oldest sister doesn’t like me. And I don’t even do anything wrong. I do my own thing and I never bother anyone. It’s just interesting to me how this dynamic works. I can say something that she doesn’t like and she’ll yell at me with ferocity. Somehow though, I’m not allowed to speak my truth. That’s why I try to stay away from my family sometimes. They don’t understand how I feel and they don’t care about my feelings frankly.
I’ve also noticed how people feel like they’re better than me. I’ve met people that treat me like crap. They don’t talk to me directly or they don’t look me in the eye. I’m not a mean person, so I don’t get it. They will ask someone next to me a question about me even though I’m right there. They could have just asked me. It makes me sick, but I ignore it. I keep all of these feelings hidden because I don’t want to cause a scene. I think I don’t speak my mind because I don’t want to accept that these people are not good people. I want to delusion myself into thinking that they’ll be better to me someday.
I’ve also noticed how even when I mind my own business and I don’t talk crap about someone, they are still bothered by my presence. I leave them completely alone. I hide myself, so I pretend I’m not even there. AND THEY ARE STILL BOTHERED! It irks me. I literally don’t cause any trouble. I do what I’m told. I am still confused by how I cannot be liked.
I see pictures of events that my sister hosts and I’m not invited. I am ignored by her constantly. Everyone in my family can see that she’s messed up, but they still stand by her. And surprise surprise… no one is behind me. I’m so sick of this. I think I need to toughen up. I no longer can ignore this crap. I’ve been keeping all of this to myself for too long. I’m so tired of being treated like this.
Hi everyone, once again, I’m finding it difficult to post regularly. I know it’s because my life is so hectic right now and I haven’t been able to do much besides work. I go through waves where I post a lot and I also go through times where I don’t post at all. I apologize. I’m going to try my best to continue posting.
As you may know, my life is difficult at home at times and it has relaxed a little. I don’t have time for negative energy. I’ve found that my being busy helps with staying away from negative energy. I’m very happy about that. I hope everyone has a great thanksgiving! And I’ll talk to you again soon!
I don’t usually write posts like these about horoscopes, but I thought it would be important to talk about how two people fit each other. My husband is a libra and he has to have everything balanced in his life. I am a Virgo. I am patient, but I am also a perfectionist. My husband becomes frustrated if a small thing throws off his balance. I am patient, so I can fix the problem without it affecting me. I didn’t quite notice this before until lately. I think we fit each other perfectly. We are similar in many ways, but our differences help each other. I never thought I would be with a Libra. I am always surprised and he makes me feel secure in our relationship. Not many horoscope pages talk about this fact. I’ve looked before because I am obsessed with astrology. I now know that this is a perfect pair, and a strong love is possible with a Libra husband and a Virgo wife.
We get caught up in the complexities of life that we often forget to see the beauty. If we become too focused on the pain and we forget to remember life is beautiful, that’s when we go to a bad place. I’m going to do my best to remember that life is amazing and that I am happy. I am so lucky to be where I am. I have a small family with my boyfriend and our dog. I know our little family will grow some day and I’m excited to be a part of it. I hope everyone is having an amazing day. Happy Friday!
I know that I’m not as consistent in my blogging as I should be. I have tons of posts on all three of my blogs. If you don’t see a new post from me on here, you might find one on my other blogs. I do try to post weekly though and that has been a struggle ever since my work has become more demanding. Every time I blog though, I feel a great sense of relief. It’s comforting to tell someone how I feel. And I don’t always have someone to tell these things to. I am so grateful for finding blogging when I did. I was going through a rough time in my life and my blogs kept me afloat. I think I’ve written about 300+ blog posts. I’m also working on my fourth blog. I’ve fallen in love with blogging. If none of my careers work out, I’m going to be a full time blogger.
I don’t always post, but when I do, it reminds me of how lucky I am. And I am so happy when I’m blogging.
I’m so sorry I’ve haven’t been blogging as much as I used to. My work has been consuming all of my time and I’ve been exhausted. I’m still so thankful for blogging and all of the bloggers in this community. I recently received such a nice comment on my blog and it reminds me of why I continue to blog. I hope everyone has been having a great year and I will continue to update this blog as much as I can.
I’m beginning to learn the importance of having a good partner. A partner can help you see your flaws and they want you to be the best that you can be. I’m not a perfect person, but my partner has helped me grow so much and I don’t know where I would be without him. I’m beginning to learn how to stop thinking negatively. It’s one of my biggest issues I’m struggling with at the moment. I sometimes get consumed with negative thoughts and I don’t talk about other stuff. I really want to change. I know that he will help me, but I want to show myself that I can do it. I’m ready to make changes 👍
There are going to be obstacles in life, and don’t let them tear you down. Ignorance is bliss. And don’t ever let someone push you down to their level. Keep your head up high and stand tall. Life is amazing only if you make it amazing. If someone else is not happy with themselves, then let them be. Let them live with their own unhappiness. Stay strong 💪
I’ve never actually been around someone that is chronically lonely 24/7 until a couple of years ago. I witnessed what happened to their life and the consequent events that followed for them. It was not pretty. In response, I saw it as my duty to make myself as less lonely as possible. I didn’t want to end up like that. And I saw what it did to that person.
You become overly attached to someone. If you have only one friend, you keep texting them and you become jealous when they hang out with other people. I remember acting like this in middle school. I ended up not having many friends after that. That person starts to distance themselves from you. And then you end up with no one.
Another thing that happens is that you start to become overly irritable. When someone hangs out with you, you complain constantly. Nothing makes you happy. And you’re always in the mood of hating other people because they have what you want. When you see other people happy, you become jealous. This jealous feeling eventually consumes your life.
The last thing that happens is depression. You fall into a state of depression that never ends. You end up staying at home not wanting to do anything. Taking care of yourself is out of the window. Every day of your life is miserable.
Loneliness is a mental state. No one is physically forcing you to feel this way. And I know that many people are dealing with loneliness. If you can get out of it, do so right away. Start a number of hobbies that take up your time. Go out and talk to people. Life is meant to be enjoyed. And the time you spend feeling tortured by yourself is time that is wasted.
I’m finding life to be amazing right now. I’m happy all the time and nothing is getting me down. I think I’ve finally overcome the thing that was making me depressed and my life has drastically changed for the better. If you’re ever in need of help and support, reach out here! I’m hoping everyone is having a great Halloween 🎃
I’ve been really trying to keep my mind clear of all negative thoughts and I’ve been struggling with doing this. I know I am going to be okay. I keep telling myself this. I believe there comes a time when you just have to be strong. Whenever these thoughts are there, I feel myself becoming weak.
Today has been a great day so far. I have a long day of teaching lessons. There are about six lessons I have to teach today. I have a two hour gap in between two of those lessons and I’m grateful for that. I’m going to go eat my second lunch and relax. I also hope to study a little bit for the lsat. Life has been good to me lately. And I have to tell myself that haters will always be there. My life is going to be alright.
I’m quickly learning that I have absolutely no privacy whatsoever. All of my moves are being watched and it’s quite annoying. I don’t understand how someone can be so obsessed with your business, but I have somebody that is watching me.
I’ve recently begun sneaking out of the house in order to get some privacy. And it’s been difficult. I’m still brainstorming on some ways to get some privacy. Any advice would be well appreciated!
I haven’t been posting for a little while on my other blogs because I’ve been busy. Work is keeping me always on the go. And it’s difficult to find time to blog. I’m writing this blog right now in between my next lesson times. Posting on this blog in particular is the best because I can write shorter posts and those take less time.
I’ve been thinking of blogging as a future career. I know it takes a lot of time and it’s not easy. I was going to discuss this with my boyfriend because we were talking about making an extra income. And I already have a monetized blog right now. I’m hoping for more financial security in the future. We’re young, so I’m not too worried about it at this moment. Well, my next lesson is in three minutes. I gotta go!
Hi, I just wanted to come back on here and update everyone. I’ve been doing well. I had a tough day of work that made me realize I needed to take a break, so I’ve been resting. I’ve been reading other people’s blog posts. And it has been great to get some time to rest my mind. I highly recommend doing this if you are feeling exhausted also. I hope everyone is having a great Sunday! I’m also looking to see if I can watch more Netflix tonight! I’m excited for that.
I just woke up and the first thing I wanted to do was to blog. I had a talk with my boyfriend last night about a plan B if my law career never happens. And I said that I would become a writer. I would start out with freelance writing and build my career from there. I’m glad I’m getting the practice from blogging and I’m excited that my blogs are slowly growing for the future.
I’m going to keep this post short. I have to go study for the lsat. I’ll talk to everyone again soon!
It’s funny to see people continue to show their true colors despite everyone around them continually forgiving them and making excuses for them. And those around them keep getting hurt by those people. It’s not great to witness, but it does seem pretty ironic when the narcissist never seems to change. Why would they change? They think they’re perfect. I think it’s amusing. And it shows me that I am right. Distancing myself and talking about this proves that my intuition was correct. I’m glad.
Yesterday was a pretty busy day for work. And I have been pretty occupied with work lately. I’m grateful for the happiness I have in myself. It’s like a light that I carry with me everywhere. And no one can take it from me. I’ve learned that there are those who are jealous of my light, but it doesn’t matter. I just focus on myself. And I continually keep making myself happy. I replenish my light with more light every day. I’ve found that I’m becoming better at making myself happy. I don’t rely on others for happiness. And this has made my life change drastically.
Sometimes you need to protect yourself from all things that can harm you. I’ve found that not everyone is going to like you and that’s okay. They will continue to dislike you for the rest of their lives. And protecting yourself is important. Your sanity and well being has to be your top priority.
Avoidance is probably the best solution. Avoiding all contact is for the best. Live your life the best you can. And know that your life is better.
We are all striving for peace. We want peace from negative emotions and negative people. That’s what I am looking for too. I hope we can all find it in our lives.
Yesterday wasn’t such a good day for my mental health. I had negative thoughts that were not good. And that took up a lot of my time. I’m trying to fight against it and be stronger. It’s hard. And I’m glad I got to spend time with my family yesterday. I have to remember that my life is better than others. I have a good future and I have many friends. My life is good. I am better and my health is amazing. I have to remember this, and I will try to whenever those thoughts appear. Overall, I know I will conquer this.
A lot of you might wonder why my ideals are so harsh and why I talk about sad topics so often; it’s because I had the worst year of my life last year and I feel like I’m still living in that year. No matter how many times I tell myself that it’ll be okay and no matter how much I tell myself that I’m better, it only works to an extent. And I’ve been bottling all of these emotions for a long time. That’s why I write so often about these feelings. It’s my way of describing what happened and hopefully helping someone else that might be in the same situation. I was emotionally abused for a long time. I had someone talking behind my back and creating drama. If I lived my life happily, they were quick to tear it down. If I happened to be smiling, they were quick to point out one of my flaws. It didn’t matter what I did, nothing could possibly stop them from constantly trying to ruin my life. And they still are. I keep a good distance from them now, but I always feel that they’re there watching and talking about me.
I know that I am stupid for enduring this for so long. I think that this is God’s test to see how strong I can overcome this hardship. I’ve never been mentally strong. My sister’s friend often told me to toughen up and I never did. It wasn’t until now, that I lived with someone very negative, that I finally understood what he meant. I need to be stronger. And I will admit that I have been trying to be strong for a long time. It’s so difficult. My friends and family said they wouldn’t be able to handle as much as I did. I’m not sure why I do it. I know that there are places where I can go and I know that my life is going to be great. I know these things. Those things keep me going. I’m okay. And I think I’m very strong for going through what I did.
I hope that blogging can be a source of strength for me. I don’t really have anyone to tell about my feelings. I feel like I’ve exhausted all of my friends and family about this. And I don’t want to bother them anymore. To those who have had to endure something like this, you should know that there is a light. And the light is you. Only you can make yourself happy. Don’t let anyone take the light away from you. If they are mean to you or they try to yell at you, just ignore them. Keep your head up and stay strong. We’re all on this journey together. And I know we’ll be okay.
I’ve seen people that were lonely and they are absolutely miserable. They don’t have a will to live. Their living conditions are equally as horrible. It’s not good to be lonely. There are more cons than pros.
If you’re lonely, you feel like no one cares about you. That might not be true. It might be that everybody has their own lives and they’re too busy to pay attention to you. It’s not about you. And I don’t want to make anybody feel bad. I just want to show you the truth about loneliness. Hopefully, you’ll be able to avoid being lonely from my advice.
I’ve found that being lonely is a selfish act. You’re only thinking about yourself. It’s about me, me, and me. If you start to think about other people, you’ll find yourself less lonely. In fact, you might find that you could treat other people better. And you’ll find that you might think of yourself too often. The person that I know that complains that they’re lonely all the time never thinks of other people. Their entire world is made up of themselves. And in return, no one cares about them.
I’m not saying that I don’t pity those who are lonely. I’m truly saying that you don’t have to be lonely. You really don’t. Every day, you have a choice whether or not it’s going to be a good day. I wouldn’t spend so much time on negative emotions. Instead, I would pour all of that energy into productivity. When you spend so much time thinking about being lonely, you end up wasting a lot of time. Try to rely on yourself because you’re not really as alone as you think you are. You still have yourself, and if you’re your own biggest fan, then you really don’t need anybody else. I would focus on myself and give myself everything I’ve ever wanted. I don’t need anybody to make me happy.
Life is too short to stay unhappy. Do you want to stay in the same place while everyone around you is moving on? It’s not okay. And no excuse in the world can make it okay for you to make others unhappy because you’re unhappy. Remember, if loneliness is the only thing you feel and it consumes your every day life, then no one will want to be around you. People want to around other happy people.
I know that there are tons of self-help books about this, but maybe they’re not realistic enough. I really don’t want people to stay in their depression forever. It’s not okay. And you have to be strong in life or you’ll end up going nowhere.
Angry people will always get the short end of the stick. They don’t know how to handle their emotions and they are consumed easily with negative emotions. People like this will never get anywhere in life. They waste all of their energy. And in my opinion, it’s really in my interest because I don’t get angry like that. If you know someone that gets angry or is jealous, you’ll see how much time they spend in their lives doing this. I don’t want to be mean, but it’s kind of hilarious. Don’t be like them! Be better and you’ll become better. And you won’t waste your time like they do.
I’ve been absent from the blogging sphere for a quick minute and I could feel my blogs becoming stagnant. Blogging all the time is not always something I can do. And I have to accept the fact that I’m just not at that level of blogging yet. Even though it may seem like i’m not blogging or on Wordpress, I am. I’ve been reading other peoples’ blogs. And that has been fun too.
Another interesting topic of discussion is that I’ve learned that someone is very obsessed with all of my daily actions. I’m a carefree person that doesn’t pay any attention to other people. I just do my own thing. Imagine a free bird that does whatever it wants. That’s me. I’ve never had anyone watch all of my actions before, but hey, if that’s what they want to do… go for it. Watch me live my best life while their’s is horrible 🙂
Yesterday was a tough day. It didn’t go quite well towards the end of the day, but not every day is perfect right? I had a student that decided to quit piano and that caught me off guard. I don’t enjoy teaching this student as much as I enjoy teaching other students. I can tell he has trouble focusing and I know younger boys usually aren’t as interested in the piano. Against all odds, he stuck with the piano for a decent amount of time. And I was very proud of him. His mother told him yesterday that I am very busy and I might not have time in the future to teach him. That’s not true exactly, but I appreciate the compliment! And he responded by saying he doesn’t want to quit piano anymore. I was happy to hear that, but my entire confidence and mood for the day was thrown off already. After the lesson, he thanked me and told me he had a very nice lesson. That made me very happy.
I don’t usually worry about losing students because I try my best to value the ones I already have. And yesterday’s ordeal made me worry about losing students. I feel like I should offer more incentives or spice up my piano lessons. I rely on this for my sole income right now. My blog is making money, but just not enough in its beginning stage. I’m going to brainstorm on how to make my piano lessons better.
I also felt discouraged about blogging. I’m definitely a stats checker and I check almost every couple of hours. I know I shouldn’t be checking unless it’s once a month, but I couldn’t stop myself from doing it. By checking every day, I’ve managed to discourage myself because the progress is minimal. And of course it’s going to be minimal if it’s day to day. Blogging shouldn’t be about instant gratification. It’s a jog, not a sprint. I have now vowed to myself that I won’t check. I’m going to enjoy blogging and only check my notifications. And hopefully the stress that I was feeling will disappear.
I have lots of homework to do this morning and I didn’t get much sleep last night. Wednesday’s are usually not my best days. I find myself scrambling in the morning to do my homework and practice the piano. And I usually don’t have time to practice the piano before my own piano lesson. I’m thinking that instead of going back to sleep, I should start early on my homework and practice. I’m feeling burnt out and I also think getting some rest will be better. I’m not entirely sure, but we’ll see on what I decide.
Last night, my best friend told me that her parent did another bad thing that was worse than what her parent did last time. And that she will not be able to spend today with me to celebrate her birthday. I was disappointed, but also very angry with the parent. If you are a parent, you need to protect your child and not hurt them. In my inner circle, I see so many parents that are rude to their children and they treat them like slaves. Each day is dedicated to giving their child tasks to do for them. If their child happens to be going out with their friends, the parent will ask them to go to the grocery store, the bank, and the mall to pick up some items for the parent. Why did these people even have children? And the kicker? These children are 25-29 years old and the parents still act like this! I have friends that have parents that don’t let them date. And my friend’s ages are 26 and 27.
I’ve seen some parents that have a huge gambling addiction. They aren’t able to control where they put their money and how much money to put there. I don’t want to judge too much, but that seems like a problem that their children shouldn’t have to deal with. When you’re much older, you should have your life together. Don’t have a child and bring them into your world of problems. Don’t take their money and give it to the casino. Don’t do these things because YOU SHOULD BE THE PARENT!
I could rant much more about this topic. All my friends have problems with their parents. I see that their parents don’t have their life together and they’re incredibly unhappy individuals. And they exude all of their negative energy upon their children. I wish I could help my friends. It’s not fair to them that they have to deal with this. Life isn’t fair and it’s just… plain embarrassing to see these “adults” act like this.
I had an amazing day. My boyfriend took me out to go feed the fishes. It’s a place where you can feed the catfish popcorn and bread! And then we went to a Hawaiian festival. It wasn’t that much fun there and we were disappointed. I didn’t like that we had to throw away all of our drinks that we brought in. We had a sprite and a water. And we finished the sprite but they made us throw away the water. The food and drinks inside the festival were not good. After that, we decided to go to Canes to eat. We love going to Canes because we can share a caniac combo together. It was a really good day overall 🙂 and my worries about it were gone when I saw that the person who wanted to control it was mad that they couldn’t control it. Haha that made my day that they were not able to manipulate the day and they were upset. It’s my mom’s birthday today, so we’re probably going out to celebrate with her. I’m also going to teach some lessons today. I’m very happy! Happy 5 year anniversary to my boyfriend and I!
The day hasn’t started yet and I’m nervous. I’m nervous about the possibility of having to adjust my plans against my own wants. There are things that I want to do today and I don’t want to do other things. What if I don’t get to do them? I would be so disappointed. I have to focus on my own happiness. And even though I say that I’m strong, I feel like it’s still out of my control.
I really hope today is a good day. I’m celebrating my anniversary with my boyfriend. And we have lots of plans to spend the day together. I’m excited and maybe my expectations for today are too high. This post isn’t about him. I don’t want anyone to get the wrong idea. We are doing great. It’s about something else. It’s okay, I will be strong. I’m glad I have my blog to share this with. Thanks for listening, I really appreciate it. I know this post is very rambly, but I’m thankful for my blog to support me during this time.
I have so many plans for myself in the future and I know I talk about that a lot, but I’m very motivated. I am so happy today because I get to spend the night and tomorrow with my boyfriend. We work different days, so it’s difficult to get the same days off. And I’m excited. I love it when we get to spend time together. Life goes by so fast and I like sharing my time with him when I can.
On another note, my body is so bloated and I’m not happy about that. I’m not going to let that stop me from living my life though. You have to decide: are you going to spend the day being sad or are you going to choose to be happy? I’m going to choose happiness. I deserve to be happy.
Another update for me is that I successfully launched my main blog. I own the domain now. I’m not sure if I mentioned it on this blog. You can check it out at Pocketfuloflearning. I’m working on redesigning it soon. And I have many new ideas for blog posts. Let’s all start blogging. I can’t wait ☀️
Do you know that scene in Gilmore Girls where Rory tells her mother that she’s pregnant and that she’s going to write a memoir of their life together? In the ending, she had nothing. She didn’t make anything from being a Yale graduate and she didn’t end up living her life’s dream of becoming a reporter. And furthermore, she left the love of her life. So, what did she have left in the end? Just a baby and herself. I couldn’t believe that she was in her thirties and she never went anywhere. Everyone thought she was going to be brilliant. She was supposed to shine above the rest. And she didn’t.
Is my life going to be like that? Am I going to have anything when I turn 30? Is the love of my life going to be with me or am I going to be alone? I fear that people don’t end up where they hope to be. And life just passes us by.
What if I still have the chance to change the future? I can still make something of myself. I’m not in my thirties, so I can count myself lucky on that. And I still have time to carve out a future for myself.
Today’s motivation is this: don’t let life pass you by. Think about what you’re doing now to help yourself and do it. I’m not saying Rory’s future wasn’t great, but it wasn’t what she wanted. Stand by yourself and work hard now. Don’t wait before it’s too late.